Friday, July 02, 2010

when hana goes into depression...

I miss you very much. Not a day goes by that I don't feel for you. Everyone thinks I talk about him cause I still love him, or that I miss him. That has never been true. He was supposed to be just a nice distraction. A nice distraction turned hell. But I don't really care about his infidelity. Cause I never loved him. It has always been you.

I hate him. I talk about him and how much I hate him all the time because I really do hate him. I broke my promise to you because of him. That's why his misery makes me happy. My misery, the reason you found her, was because I broke my promise. I broke my promise because he came along. And I was weak.

I hope you're happy though... with her... wherever you are.

I've built up a sturdier wall after him, he who never did matter... he who never managed to bring down the wall i put up after you left... The wall I built up cause I didn't want to fall. Cause falling would mean erasing you from my heart...

But... I think I'm falling...

Suddenly, along came an unexpected one... When I sit next to him... I feel you. The closest ever I've felt since you left.

I don't want to fall. My last remaining hope... my belief... my faith... my heart... you took them with you miles and miles away... ='(

get over it fana.

Posted by L|v|nGdEaD b|tCh at 5:23:00 AM