Friday, April 16, 2010

living...dead...bitch

you know that feeling? that you're alive... but dead. it's like... you can feel. it hurts and all. but then... you'll go like, "oh well... it's the same. day in day out." then you will wonder, is it even worth living? since you're already dead inside.

i came up with this blog... livingdeadbitch.blogspot.com, because at that time, i was going through loads of shit problems... it was 2004, i was 18 then... looking back, i realised something... people come in and out of your life. u meet different people all the time, or the same ones whom you have not spoken to in a long time, and they too, are bound to change.

but even with different people, or same people with different attitudes, at different places, in different environments, in different situations, at different times... the problems remain the same. they will never go away.

but the reason i'm still here, and not 6 feet under (alhamdullilah) is because of faith. i have faith, that no matter how f. up my life is, whenever, wherever, one day, it will all be good. probably i'll be around different ppl, or the ppl who are the same have changed..maybe at a different place, hopefully in a different country, in different environments and situations... i have faith... if not next week, if not next month or next yr or next decade even, one day... it will be good. anything before that is a challenge, a test.

i'm still standing strong, dead, but alive.

Posted by L|v|nGdEaD b|tCh at 4:01:00 AM